Just thinking in loud... difficult to live with him?
We are married. Our kids, in college. The house, lost value, therefore I can't sell it, I owe more than its current value. It would be wonderful If I could pay the house alone, and If I could provide everything my kids still need so I don't need him. He doesn't have a steady income... I can't have a 2nd job, don't have the strenght and I would never see my kids again w a 2nd job. You know, I would live at 7:30 am and would return by the time they are asleep, from my 2nd job... He, he never tried or wanted to have a steady job... that will pay him a little bit less BUT will have a STEADY income! His character: LIKE a bipolar, not that he is biologically, but that is how he is. My kids, they just tolerate him, we all are in
a "relational surviving mode". The kids still need a "steady" family, you know a roof, and some kind of emotional support of a family...they are still dependent on us... Our relation, he and I... well I wish I could never see him again. He, he despises me in every way, so we tolerate each other... I wish it would be different but he is an 'angry man", always, any time of the day, any day of the week, without even a a reason... No I already know and accepted that he will Never Change. After so many years of marriage, that's how I know. Thank you for listening. I just needed to say it.